I started off my last post with a the intention of writing about my new size accomplishment, however, it quickly diverged into a story about shorts and insecurities. Now, i am back to continue commenting on Size 12.
About three months ago my trainer, Amanda, loaned me one of her favorite books; The Female Body Breakthrough by Rachel Cosgrove. In that book one of Rachel's strategies is to have small and realistic goals in your weight loss and physical changes. She talks about the "skinny jeans" that most girls have stuck in the bottom or back of their closets. Rachel empowers women to use those jeans as a measurement of success and not some number on a scale.
I did not have a pair of goal jeans. Throughout my weight loss process I have consistently been wearing clothes until they are just TOO large to wear anymore. Then and only then I would go shopping to buy just enough new cloths to tide me over.
After reading this book i forced my husband to take me to the Levis store at Woodburn and i went to buy a pair of jeans that were specifically, too small.
When we got to the store I tried on several styles and types until I found a pair that fit nicely. That particular jean, that day was a size 16. I walked out of the fitting room, the assistant asked me how it worked out and I said great, I'll take a size 12 and handed her back the 16. She gave me the strangest look and I explained the logic behind having a goal pair of jeans that I can try on every week to see in progress in action. In the beginning they are just past my knees. After a few weeks, I can get them mid thigh. After another few weeks the are on, but not to be buttoned. Well, today, I tried again - buttoned, zipped and ready to go.
Today, I go get my Size 8!
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
Size 12
Good news guys and gals! I went shopping for a pair of shorts and officially introduced myself to a new size! A new size, that is wonderful! A smaller size, that is fantastic! Buying shorts, that is unheard of!!!
Thinking back, I CANNOT remember buying shorts. In the last 10 years i have HAD shorts but i don't recall ever getting up the motivation to actually BUY shorts.
Buying (and really wearing, for that matter) has always been a very tender issue for me. I dont know where this insecurity comes from. Skirts- fine. Dresses- fine. Pedal pushers- no problem. But shorts- I always seem to feel like I am showing too much to the world.
So the success in this story. I confidently walked into Target, went to the shorts, found a fitted pair (elastic, i am sorry, but your not allowed in my life anymore), size 12, tried it on in the fitting room, perfect fit. Proud and happy! Confident! Sexy! In shorts!
Mid week 3- i am very pleased on how my challenge is going!
Week 4- tentative to say the least. Traveling for business and pleasure. I'll keep you updated!
Thinking back, I CANNOT remember buying shorts. In the last 10 years i have HAD shorts but i don't recall ever getting up the motivation to actually BUY shorts.
Buying (and really wearing, for that matter) has always been a very tender issue for me. I dont know where this insecurity comes from. Skirts- fine. Dresses- fine. Pedal pushers- no problem. But shorts- I always seem to feel like I am showing too much to the world.
So the success in this story. I confidently walked into Target, went to the shorts, found a fitted pair (elastic, i am sorry, but your not allowed in my life anymore), size 12, tried it on in the fitting room, perfect fit. Proud and happy! Confident! Sexy! In shorts!
Mid week 3- i am very pleased on how my challenge is going!
Week 4- tentative to say the least. Traveling for business and pleasure. I'll keep you updated!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Week One, Done.
Alright- week one is done. Good news to report: there is over 2 inches less of me than there was last week.
Can I get a WOO HOO!
Though my jaw and tongue (and wallet) had issues with the amount of veggies I ate last week, my body is very happy with it!
Updates for week 2 - slightly less calories, similar percentages of caloric intake and I can reduce my veggie intake to 2 servings per meal instead of 4.
I remind myself that I created this blog to be accountable and to share my story about this process. I have to admit that I hid away from one thing last week. Sprints...
I hate sprints.
So, here is my plea, dear friends and family. Ask me about my sprints.
Sprint with me.
Help me sprint...
And for the most exciting part of this weekly update- my photo...
Can I get a WOO HOO!
Though my jaw and tongue (and wallet) had issues with the amount of veggies I ate last week, my body is very happy with it!
Updates for week 2 - slightly less calories, similar percentages of caloric intake and I can reduce my veggie intake to 2 servings per meal instead of 4.
I remind myself that I created this blog to be accountable and to share my story about this process. I have to admit that I hid away from one thing last week. Sprints...
I hate sprints.
So, here is my plea, dear friends and family. Ask me about my sprints.
Sprint with me.
Help me sprint...
And for the most exciting part of this weekly update- my photo...
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Easy
Day before yesterday, I was reading my friends blog and she has posted the quote "Nothing in life worth doing is easy". I have been reflecting and ruminating on this since the moment I read it.
Making the decision to participate in this challenge was very easy for me. I have been on a mission to loose my extra weight for almost three years now. I am getting so close to making my goal that I am both getting very tired of the process and hyper focused on getting to the end.
At this stage in the process I am uncovering new challenges that I have not faced before. The desire to quit is greater than ever. I am so proud of what i have done and where i am, there is an ease is stopping the drive now. "Nothing in life worth doing is easy". Its easy to stop short of the finish line. Its hard to stick it out and see it through to the end. It wasn't easy to go from obese to overweight, but it feels so much harder to go from overweight to in-weight.
So- what is the goal? What is the finish line? I would like to get to a size 6-8 or 145 lbs. Where am i now? 175 and size 13...
Making the decision to participate in this challenge was very easy for me. I have been on a mission to loose my extra weight for almost three years now. I am getting so close to making my goal that I am both getting very tired of the process and hyper focused on getting to the end.
At this stage in the process I am uncovering new challenges that I have not faced before. The desire to quit is greater than ever. I am so proud of what i have done and where i am, there is an ease is stopping the drive now. "Nothing in life worth doing is easy". Its easy to stop short of the finish line. Its hard to stick it out and see it through to the end. It wasn't easy to go from obese to overweight, but it feels so much harder to go from overweight to in-weight.
So- what is the goal? What is the finish line? I would like to get to a size 6-8 or 145 lbs. Where am i now? 175 and size 13...
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Week 1 - Shock Week
I just got home from an excellent trip to India and on my return my trainer launched an eight week nutrition and fitness challenge to all of her clients. Without a second thought I said "YES!" What better time to dial in nutrition and fitness than right after three weeks of vacation.
So... week one. I received my welcome email from my trainer. She called it "shock week". I quickly poo-poo'ed it thinking she was addressing it to the other group members that might be newer than me. However, I was shocked. So he made a 'shocking' change to my nutrition and is taking the workouts up a notch!
Nutrition: My total caloric intake has jumped from ~1600 per day to 2200 to 2500 per day. WOW. Bigger WOW- how those calories break down. 40% fat - i can do that :) almonds are great! 35% protein - can do! Already accustomed to a higher protein intake and spreading it through out the day. 25% carbs* - can do!.. wait... what is that asterisk? Carbs need to come from veggies only??!! Only one serving of fruit post workout??!!
WOW - ok. That one will be hard. Yes, you found my shock.
Do you know how many cups of veggies you have to eat to consume ~ 500 calories a day?
I can tell you
cups
and
cups
and
cups
and
cups
More veggies than you think you can consume in a day!
I am writing this post on day 3 of week 1 and I am happy to report that YES you can eat all these veggies in a day!
I decided to write this blog for two reasons. First- I have had an incredible story and progress in the last three years and have done a poor job documenting it- through the highs and lows. Second- I am at a point where I need accountability. I need to vocalize, communicate, share and talk about this challenge. I need to see, I need people to see my progress. To that end; Week 1:
So... week one. I received my welcome email from my trainer. She called it "shock week". I quickly poo-poo'ed it thinking she was addressing it to the other group members that might be newer than me. However, I was shocked. So he made a 'shocking' change to my nutrition and is taking the workouts up a notch!
Nutrition: My total caloric intake has jumped from ~1600 per day to 2200 to 2500 per day. WOW. Bigger WOW- how those calories break down. 40% fat - i can do that :) almonds are great! 35% protein - can do! Already accustomed to a higher protein intake and spreading it through out the day. 25% carbs* - can do!.. wait... what is that asterisk? Carbs need to come from veggies only??!! Only one serving of fruit post workout??!!
WOW - ok. That one will be hard. Yes, you found my shock.
Do you know how many cups of veggies you have to eat to consume ~ 500 calories a day?
I can tell you
cups
and
cups
and
cups
and
cups
More veggies than you think you can consume in a day!
I am writing this post on day 3 of week 1 and I am happy to report that YES you can eat all these veggies in a day!
I decided to write this blog for two reasons. First- I have had an incredible story and progress in the last three years and have done a poor job documenting it- through the highs and lows. Second- I am at a point where I need accountability. I need to vocalize, communicate, share and talk about this challenge. I need to see, I need people to see my progress. To that end; Week 1:
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